Kids

Y Kumar gone back to India permanently he is a friend of me since we were 8th standard. Very good man with short temper!!! He is been always by my side encouraging me to do what I want to do. A man should love the family at the same time he is the direction for the family. I have seen lots of family with man in back seat, (with all due respect to ladies) for the success of the family always man should be in the front. I had seen in our family my father always had last say but he always asked my mother for the suggestions. We as kids never had options to talk about their decisions. Even today I am not totally confident to talk in front of father still that fear not because he beat me it’s only a look!!!!!!
As a kid I always felt that my parents were wrong but now? We had our own discipline at home. I still remember all of us should be ready for dinner when dad says its time for dinner. Since he was working, dinner was the only time we had together. We had our own designated place as well with our own designated plates. No confusion, no excuse. If we couldn’t attend this gathering no food!!!!!!
We didn’t had door to the house! I remember one night when I was 8 or 9 years old I said I am frightened, Amma made me to stand in the dark for half an hour and appa asked me what is fear? I never had a dare to say fear again!!
Whatever our parents did its for our good future only.
Kids are like clay, mould it give a shape and dry them they take beautiful shape! If you don’t know how to shape them or if we act like we don’t know then we will have to repent one day. Everybody like their kids and family but when it needs we need to be bit strong, better to be bit strong than the things go beyond control and had to take a harsh decision!!!!

Early Days

I feel sad to look at the kids nowadays because as a kid the enjoyment I had is not possible for kids today. Lots of work at home with that lots of game too. All the paddy work me and father use to do those days but still had enough stamina to play afterwards. Always had the enthusiasm to play and learn new tricks.
Most enjoyed time in my life was the rainy session, which still I love at Udupi. Those days I had a raincoat which always torn in different places and more water would come inside than it kept me dry. We had so many places water use to stay on the road which use to rise till our hip. I loved that thunder and lightning in a dark night with roaring of the sea from the distance.
In summer holidays playing whole day morning till evening cricket then volleyball after that in indoor card!!!!
Now the big playground near our house is no more there. The big gang of boys disappeared and all the kids depend on the indoor games for entertainment. I feel pathetic for the kids of this country they cannot have exposure of the nature because all the time it is cooled winter even other wise I hardly seen kids in a colony getting together and playing. May be this is the way of a civilised country.

Why Blog

Mind full of thoughts like waves in sea. Early days of life wrote a lots of stories and poems and almost every day I wrote a poem. Those days that was the way I expressed myself since I left home in 1995 my writing ability started diminishing still initial days of my life in Bangalore I wrote a bit may be because my friends in Bangalore encouraged. Slowly I stopped writing but somewhere in the corner of the mind, I was thriving to write but could not. maybe I was finding the excuses all the time, stupid mind is lezzy! Since I came to London my desire to write started increasing mean time I saw lots in life it hammered me a lot what I saw where not true what I thought right were utterly wrong!!!
All fun yesterdays pains are today just experiance!!!!!!!
Life just goes on I can sit and cry for the past or adopt it and enjoy!!!!!!!!