Some thoughts 1

Visions for India Some of the beautiful and meaningful concepts given by the Indian priminister Mr. Narendra Modi in 2014 when he became brand new priminister of India. When he became PM, he did not have any baggage's. He was a new man at this high position of the biggest democracy in the world. All participating parties of the National Democratic Alliance were happy. Though Mr. Modi did not need any help form participants he shown he is not the one who forgets partnership in good time. As he started giving new vision statements like "Sub Ke Saath sab ka Vikas", "Bharath Vishwa Guru", "Make in India", this corporate concept of vision statements, result based elevation in a rusted Indian public sector sounded like a joke. General public started getting excited by these kinds of new words and phrases. Unrest in the alliance, jealousy in opposition started appearing. As the profile of India started raising on the international stage, the childish behavior of the alliance and opposition started coming to light more frequently. The incapable leadership of the opposition believed too much in proof of assertion! own alliances started pulling the leg of this man with the illusion of one day it might come out! Effects of these negative acts are the man started becoming more stronger, the international arena started wondering how useless people could be in Indian politics just because of they inherited it. India Vishwa Guru is a beautiful concept which is thousands of year old reality. The wisdom and knowledge of Indian ancient civilization yet to fully uncovered and understood. Since the independents, hardly anything is done for an identity to Indians. Anything did happened since 1947 is only try to keep the vote bank safe by different political parties and given a little in the name of development. A country like Israel became independent similar time as India and look at the development it has done in the midst of all the conflicts and enmity. In the name of democracy in India the governments try to programme people to believe themselves whatever they got is the best and they don’t deserve any better. Pseudo-democracy of India is pulling its own greatness down and destroying the country in the illusions British build while leaving India in the hands of incapable people. Maybe Mr Gandhi was an illusion as well when he thought Mr Nehru is more eligible than Mr Patel to run the country. Or was British created brand calm Gandhi against aggressive nationalists like Bose? Post independent India lived in that illusion for such a long because there was no one, to tell the truth to the common man of India. It is good to be enjoying the independence but it is also acting responsibly and think about future. but our leaders only looked at how to divide the people and build their vote bank. people were so uninformed due to the lake of the honest information system. People were said they are not equal and they believed it. In the name of reservation people with talent forced to fly out of the country and they did. this was beneficial to the countries like the USA and European countries. People with 35% marks in education joined the workforce to do 35 % performance. People above 90% mark holders and good performers escape the country and build the countries like the USA and Europe. There is no point in giving free gifts, it is important to make people earn them. People should be able to live when a person giving gifts are not around. By giving free facilities political parties rule India made people lazy. When people know they don’t get free gifts they work hard and competing for society harness itself in the middle of opportunities. But independent Indian political parties didn’t realise it or lazy people are good for their political benefits. Parties in power fed people their own glorification in the name of education and try to keep them as less educated as possible. In the midst of this, the people went outside India in search of opportunities started bringing back the knowledge. The result was IT revolution of India. Different political parties may claim that it was their achievement of bringing computers to India. I strongly believe the Indian youngsters in west visualized the opportunities. Maybe government policies aided their vision, but once the common man decides to go in a direct political workforce has to follow that. It is the compulsion for the politics. At the same time, politicians can give vision people need to follow. But for years in India, there were no visionary politicians. If I remember right last such thing happened was by Lal Bahadur Shastri's "Jai Javan Jai Kisan". Maybe people claim that "Garibee Hatao" as well but no action followed that slogan. Its once again needed the opportunities and schemes to help people to become capable than just feed them with free food. Unless one earn something one will never realize the importance of that thing which is in his hand. Also, you can give free things as far as you are in power but once you are not in power that person becomes poor again. Instead, you make him capable of earning my own rupees then he will never go back to poverty again. I feel that the reason India failed to achieve its greatness back since independence is just that of this concept of freebies. Political parties ruled India since the independence just to keep their vote back safe distributed freebees once every now and then and keep getting their power back. I feel like this is first time happening that a ruling party tries to make people capable of lifting themselves out of poverty and empowering themselves to achieve a better lifestyle. I feel like Sab ka Saath sab ka Vikas is happening because there are no schemes (Scams) I could see targeting one community or cast or section of people announced. No Schemes (Scams) announced near a state election which indicates that people should feel the development, not look at them and vote. ……………………………………….

Baby came

Yesterday (28th april 2017) at 17:26:47 baby came. That is a line I wrote about a year ago. I want to capture a feelings and emotions of baby in my life. It is hard to explain. We don’t know how these 11months passed.
To start of exactly 11 months ago today that was 27th April around 11in the night Sunitha said her water broke. I didn’t want to drive to hospital in that tension. Called one of our friend but his brother in law passed away. Another friend didn’t pick the call. May be god wanted us to have that time only for me and Sunitha. After a bit of a try got my good old friend cabbie Panda car said not to worry he will send a taxi. We were not expecting baby for at least one more month. So we were not done our shopping fully yet. We picked up whatever baby cloths we had and taxi was in front of home in 10min and we left. I was very nervous but could not show it to Sunitha. In another 15 to 20 min reached Homerton hospital. By then I lost the count of time I wanted Sunutha to be safe. I even felt that whatever it may happen I wanted Sunitha to be safe. It all looks very odd now but those were  the thoughts at that moment.
After waiting for about an hour they decided to admit her and scheduled c-section following day which was Friday the 28th April. I sat next to her bed holding her hand whole night. She was sleeping because of pain killers worked well for her. I was not slept whole night all kinds of thoughts passing in my mind, Felt like alone in the world, cannot talk to anyone, don't know what to do, bad thoughts started coming as well. If something happens to Sunitha? Just keep reciting vishnu sahasranama. Morning realised I was not sure I locked the home door or not. Could not leave Sunitha alone but what should I do? I spoke to a nurse early morning. She gave me lot of courage and said I could go home and come back and she will make sure Sunitha is not gone to theatre before I come back. When Sunitha woke up I kissed her with heavy heart ran to train station. I was really ran through out that that day’s journey When I reached home I straight went to take bath and picked up all the stuff Sunitha asked me to then quickly went to Tesco and purchased diapers for the baby and ran to the station and to the hospital . It was waiting for whole day because of they had lots of emergencies. One of the nurse was very helpful may be she knew that I work for NHS. Ashok keep texting me to say that delay the delivery because of not good time in the morning. It was so much of tension because you don’t know what is happening. Once a while Sunitha wakes up and tell me baby is not moving but I cannot panic. If I panic she will as well. Kept talking to her and talking to her only positive things. I think only god helped me at that moment because no one to tell or give courage to me. Initially it was decided to have the C-Section at 8:30am but due to delay it was keep postponing. In open I was very relaxed but inside I was very nervous, my heart beat was very fast and all negative thoughts passing by. Try to give Sunitha as comfort as possible, she looked very excited and relaxed. I dint feel like having anything because she was not able to have anything till the surgery. It was about 5pm the nurse came and said they are taking Sunitha in for surgery. They gave me the scrubs as well. I accompanied Sunitha to theatre. She looked very excited I was very nervous till I hear the babies cry. It was 5:26 we could hear the first cry of the baby. When she came out didn’t cry it was anxious moment. A moment later she cried. It was the sweetest sound I ever heard in my life. She was so beautiful, they left her on Sunithas chest, I was scared she may fall down I hold on to her when Sunitha was looking at her. I was just thanking god again and again.

I was so happy to see her, can not explain it. Nurses took Sunitha for recovery and I had to accompany little Aadhya to the pediatric department for antibiotic. They give antibiotic for three days for pre matured delivery. Aadhya came about 4 weeks early! I saw about 10 to 15 babies in the incubeters. That gave me a little relife that my baby does not have to go through that. I called Amma and told her the arrival of Puttakka. I called Sunitha's mother as well. Puttakka was sleeping happily. When the doctor try to cannulate her I felt more pain than Pttakka! Doctor told me such small Babie's wont feel any pain. After couple of hours away from Sunitha finally me and Puttakka joined with Sunitha in the ward. All other new born babies were quiet and happily breast feeding. But our Pttakka was eager to have breast feeding and crying. Sunitha tried to breast fed her couple of times it was all experiment for us. Nurse try to teach Sunitha. Puttakka had a bit and the nurse thought me to change the diaper! I changed Puttakka's first diapper! almost one year later I published it