Baby came

Yesterday (28th april 2017) at 17:26:47 baby came. That is a line I wrote about a year ago. I want to capture a feelings and emotions of baby in my life. It is hard to explain. We don’t know how these 11months passed.
To start of exactly 11 months ago today that was 27th April around 11in the night Sunitha said her water broke. I didn’t want to drive to hospital in that tension. Called one of our friend but his brother in law passed away. Another friend didn’t pick the call. May be god wanted us to have that time only for me and Sunitha. After a bit of a try got my good old friend cabbie Panda car said not to worry he will send a taxi. We were not expecting baby for at least one more month. So we were not done our shopping fully yet. We picked up whatever baby cloths we had and taxi was in front of home in 10min and we left. I was very nervous but could not show it to Sunitha. In another 15 to 20 min reached Homerton hospital. By then I lost the count of time I wanted Sunutha to be safe. I even felt that whatever it may happen I wanted Sunitha to be safe. It all looks very odd now but those were  the thoughts at that moment.
After waiting for about an hour they decided to admit her and scheduled c-section following day which was Friday the 28th April. I sat next to her bed holding her hand whole night. She was sleeping because of pain killers worked well for her. I was not slept whole night all kinds of thoughts passing in my mind, Felt like alone in the world, cannot talk to anyone, don't know what to do, bad thoughts started coming as well. If something happens to Sunitha? Just keep reciting vishnu sahasranama. Morning realised I was not sure I locked the home door or not. Could not leave Sunitha alone but what should I do? I spoke to a nurse early morning. She gave me lot of courage and said I could go home and come back and she will make sure Sunitha is not gone to theatre before I come back. When Sunitha woke up I kissed her with heavy heart ran to train station. I was really ran through out that that day’s journey When I reached home I straight went to take bath and picked up all the stuff Sunitha asked me to then quickly went to Tesco and purchased diapers for the baby and ran to the station and to the hospital . It was waiting for whole day because of they had lots of emergencies. One of the nurse was very helpful may be she knew that I work for NHS. Ashok keep texting me to say that delay the delivery because of not good time in the morning. It was so much of tension because you don’t know what is happening. Once a while Sunitha wakes up and tell me baby is not moving but I cannot panic. If I panic she will as well. Kept talking to her and talking to her only positive things. I think only god helped me at that moment because no one to tell or give courage to me. Initially it was decided to have the C-Section at 8:30am but due to delay it was keep postponing. In open I was very relaxed but inside I was very nervous, my heart beat was very fast and all negative thoughts passing by. Try to give Sunitha as comfort as possible, she looked very excited and relaxed. I dint feel like having anything because she was not able to have anything till the surgery. It was about 5pm the nurse came and said they are taking Sunitha in for surgery. They gave me the scrubs as well. I accompanied Sunitha to theatre. She looked very excited I was very nervous till I hear the babies cry. It was 5:26 we could hear the first cry of the baby. When she came out didn’t cry it was anxious moment. A moment later she cried. It was the sweetest sound I ever heard in my life. She was so beautiful, they left her on Sunithas chest, I was scared she may fall down I hold on to her when Sunitha was looking at her. I was just thanking god again and again.

I was so happy to see her, can not explain it. Nurses took Sunitha for recovery and I had to accompany little Aadhya to the pediatric department for antibiotic. They give antibiotic for three days for pre matured delivery. Aadhya came about 4 weeks early! I saw about 10 to 15 babies in the incubeters. That gave me a little relife that my baby does not have to go through that. I called Amma and told her the arrival of Puttakka. I called Sunitha's mother as well. Puttakka was sleeping happily. When the doctor try to cannulate her I felt more pain than Pttakka! Doctor told me such small Babie's wont feel any pain. After couple of hours away from Sunitha finally me and Puttakka joined with Sunitha in the ward. All other new born babies were quiet and happily breast feeding. But our Pttakka was eager to have breast feeding and crying. Sunitha tried to breast fed her couple of times it was all experiment for us. Nurse try to teach Sunitha. Puttakka had a bit and the nurse thought me to change the diaper! I changed Puttakka's first diapper! almost one year later I published it